Pulling dreaded weeds & seeing the flowers bloom relates to My Glitch

Disclosure: As a reminder I don't go back and correct any mental errors while writing because that is true to how my brain works with living with epilepsy. In order to understand this by someone just joining, one example at times I might speak a seteances out ouf order, or repeat them, spelling.

This week I have spent hours pulling too many weeds I can count, they have spread greatly due to all the rain we have had, followed by extremne heat. (reminder those of you living with your own Glitch, be careful of the strong heat. It can be a trigger for a Glitch to occur. I made sure to stay hydrated, take breaks, and do it in the early morning hours) Alkongwith that, I have enjoyed planting beautiful flowers to brighten up my day and start to enjoy the summer time. By doing both of these, it made me think about how my feelings doing both relate to my undpredoictable seizures.

Hence the topic of this week's MyGlitch Blog.

How I Saw Weeds in My Glitch

After I have MyGlitch I often feel like I’m in a garden overrun by weeds. These weeds represent my feelings of fatigue, anxiety, and the fact MyGlitch will return at any moment.

So I try to prevent it by resting, taking medication, exercise, and meditation. But just like weeds, these feelings come back, sometimes stronger than before. UGH!

• Persistence: Weeds come back even after I contsantly pulled them out, much like MyGlitches can recur despite me following my detailed treatment.

• Disruption: Weeds interfere with the growth of flowers, just as MyGlitches disrupt my "normal" brain function. If there is such a thing as normal:)

• Adaptation: Weeds change based on the location & weather, Just like MyGlitches adapts based on my changes in life

  
  

  I hope this helps to explain the emotional and physical toll of MyGlitch. The constant battle against MyGlitch can feel exhausting, just like how I was getting very frustrated fighting the weeds daily, just to have them come back the next day.

Flowers Blooming and MyGlitch

MyGlitch compares to weeds, but they also are days like a blooming flowers/plants. These are the times when clarity returns, creativity flows, and I feel alive. After a Glitch free period, these blooms feel like a reward for tough times.

During these moments, I try to work my brain with activities I enjoy listening to music/singing, crossowrds, legos, reading, sitting out on our patio for sunshine, walks, exercising/dacning, spending time with family and friends(at times this has to be by phone since I can't drive) These are just examples, and yes most of the time since home by myself I am singing to no one. LOL.

The BEST time is when my husband gets home from work, and I get to enjoy time with him. (this is also true when our sons come home) These flowers blooming are at times fragile,Just like how it is between MyGlitches.

Sadly; their beauty is temporary. They eventually wilt and die, making room for new growth. But the wilting turns to griwth once again just like MyGlitches come and go, so does my brain and its function. These wilted moments are hard to face because they feel like setbacks after just feeling "normal". But by me understanding this constant unkowing cycle encourages acceptance of the natural ups and downs of living with MyGlitch. It highlights the importance of taking care of my brain during its “blooming” phases and preparing for the “wilting” or Glitches.

• Enjoy Every Moment: during the blooming days, I need to make sure i enjoy every minute and not worry that something is going to go bad

• So REST: is essential during these "wilting flower" moments, so the blooms come back

• Being Honest: I need to tell myself this is temporay and it does not mean I failed

So I am Learning to Embrace

the Cycle of My Glitch

Like a Garden

So by doing all I did this week with the weeding, planting, seeing flowers bloom, I learned the below. (ok, I might have over did it here and there, but I am stubborn but learning)

• The weeds are frustrating but manageable.

• The flowers are precious and worth nurturing.

• The wilting flower are ugly but temporary.

• This perspective helps me stay grounded and hopeful.

  
  

By comparing MyGlitch to a garden, I hope this gives you

a visual of my ups and downs for Team Parmer.