Can You See The Seizure?

Disclosure: As a reminder I don't go back and correct any mental errors while writing because that is true to how my brain works with living with epilepsy. In order to understand this by someone just joining, one example at times I might speak a seteances out ouf order, or repeat them, spelling.

Not The Original Topic Planned

I had planned on talking about how imortant it is to have personal connections, since most of time I am alone. But this needs to be talked about.

I have talked about before how Epilepsy is known as an "invisible illness". I could not even count how many times I/my family has heard: "she doesn't look sick, you need to watch her she looks drunk, why do you need cancel you seem fine, why are you staring at me, why are you ignoring me" I could go on and on but you get the picture. Now look closely at the UTSA basbeall game day pics. Can you tell which day a seizure happend?

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The Answer Is.....insert drumroll please

It is the picture without me having baseball cap on.

To be fair on some of these days, I had seizures experienced but of smaller magnitude. No it was not planned that way and yes, it is unusual I don't have a baseball hat on. I have had to start to wear glasses to even see the game clearly. At times wearing the glasses makes it harder to keep the hat on.

I hope this shows you how a person that lives with various types of Epilepsy looks just like anyone else.

Various factors that day which MIGHT have caused this seizure

Lack of sleep and differnt daily schedule due to traveling. Just getting over from being sick, Menopause hot flashes on high, placing added stress on myself not wanting to have a seizure and miss seeing Broc/his team play . This is a shortened recap of the day it occurred, just to give you a picture of it.

In the wee hours of the morning on this past Sunday I began having very bad gastro complications. We thought I was good come game time, but let's just say unfortunately I was in the bathroom more than getting to watch the game.(as mom you can imagine my guilt that came on) We made sure to sit in the shade, near the bathrooms, and not too far having to walk up stairs.

Due to the above, Brent was making sure to keep me hydrated. I was on overload drinking bottles of powerade, along with bottles of water to help keep me hydrated due to the heat and gastro issues. Also had a soft pretzel to try something in my stomach.

What happened to show I had a seizure

At the end of the game, I went to the restroom again and that was the last thing I remember. Brent said I was taking longer and looked to see where I was and I had wakled up a different ramp than I had the entire game. I was looking confused and was not walking straight, and so he knew something wasn't right. He rushed over and right at that moment I went down.

Of course many people swarmed around me & automatically wanted to call the EMT's and get me to the hospital. Many assumed I was diabetic, heart issues, drunk, overheated, you name it was anything BUT seizures. I don't have convulsive seizures, just at times tremors in my right hand. The movies are what make people think that is what seizures ONLY look like. Brent said please just make some room, do not call EMS as she has uncontrolled epilepsy and just needs some time to come aware.

Now this could have been an absence seizure, a drop attack seizure, syncope spell (low BP leads to pasing out) that went into a focal aware and unaware seizure. Yes, some seizures you can be walking, and yes some you can talk too it might just be hard to get words out. You see I have uncontrolled seizures which also stems from GAD65 Autoimmune disorder.

From there Brent explained he was trying to get me to answer basic questions, i was apologiczing over and over and he said I started to have the ugly cry, the teamm dr took my vitals and once again an officer and Brent helped me get to the restroom.

From there they took me a place to sit away from everyone, place ice on me to cool body down, continued ot take vitals as Brent held me to sit up. (This is the basic jist, as I don't remember any of this. This is the basic recall of Brent telling me)

Just a funny note to wrap this up

Before I say this please know epilepsy and anyone experiencing a seizure is nothing to laugh at.

But when your family has lived through many various seizures for many years, sometimes laughter is needed to keep life in persepctive. By this time Broc came and found us.

"He said he looked up in the stands to see where we were and he said he saw a large group of people hovered looking in shock/fear. He said whelp I guess mom is down again" So he came and gave me hug and talked with me so Brent could go get the car.

I again apologized while crying, as I felt I ruined his game and emabarrassed him and of course being the kind hearted son he always has been, he says "Mom, first off i don't care what anyone is saying and you could never emabarass me. Just having you here and the strength you do daily means the world to me, you inspire me each gameday with you here and i love you"

If you learned at least one thing from this entry.

I hope now you KNOW not one person that lives with epilepsy looks the same.

Even before, during or after the seizure occurs.